Hey There!
I'm someone who keeps opinions to myself, quiet with strangers.Talkative with mates..
Loves kids, cause i think they are a gift from GOD :D
I'm never straight forward. I still think there is more to life than meets the eye. And i do not live life with regrets.
I am ...Nur Qamariah Sahat , Born 15 June 1989.Living for 20 years, trying to learn what LIFE is.
And I fell in love with a Sweet Gorgeous Young Chap, Jusof Ahmad.

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I'm back again in blogging world.Not because of fame, but i need space.. a space I can let everything off my chest.

A little update about me? Currently still working at the same place , company called "Techno-Marine (S) Pte Ltd" for over a year already.Yes,yes , purely Chinese company.And i have a whole lot of fun and laughter working there,having my childhood friend and my best buddie working together with me...that is what I can call HEAVEN! ahaha..

Let's side track a while.

I just came back from my ultimate "NO PARENTS" holiday, with my boyfriend and friends!! The first for me though.What do you expect? I'm barely 21!! We went to KL via BIKE,convoy 6 bikes from JB all the way to Kuala Lumpur which is 300KM apart! Had hell of a ride! ... should do that again someother time, THAILAND maybe! For Pictures, kindly visit my FB. "KL Trip with the Gang"


Life has been pretty tough on me, reminiscence of the past keep coming back haunting me.There is so much i held back. Its not good for me, but its good for everyone else to better off not knowing anything than something! ..


Sometimes i feel like exploding...


God Allah s.w.t always give you chances for a reason,
and my reason was , for me to repent to a better ISLAM

Life is not about enjoying it, its about living through it as who you are. An Islam.

selamat hari raya to all.

there are sins that i've done to hurt feelings, to cause fight between one another... and also to ignore friends that are there for me.


dari itu,
saye NUR QAMARIAH BINTE SAHAT, ingin mengucap kan SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI , MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

JIKA ADA SALAH DAN SILAP, TERKASAR BAHASE, TER KURANG AJAR, TERMAKI DGN TAK SENGAJE, HARAP DI MAAF KAN.

DAN KEPADE KENG KAWANS, RYA INGIN MEMINTA MAAF, DGN 10 JARI JEMARI JIKA RYA TERSINGGUNG KAN PERASAAN YANG LAIN. RYA NI MANUSIA BIASA YANG TAK PERNAH PUDAR DARI MEMBUAT KESILAPAN.

sekian.



p.s: i think i'm living in an empty world. seriously. turn left and right. only left me and my boyfriend all alone.

i have such a hard time trusting myself. believe in things that i definately have to.

relationship is based on trust, honesty and loyalty.




those 3 major things that i need from you.




anyway, a simple convo with baby:

me: can i ask you a question?
him: apa dia baby?
me: would you love,care, be by my side till the end?
him:of all question , knape ni? you should know the answer rite.
me:just asking. i think i miss you..... WAIT, i do miss you damn much.
him: i'm sorry. i love u too k.



haish.

i fell in love with love, despite going through a whole lot of ups and downs. insecurities.

this is what i wanted. this is what i'm going to build.

a life with you, baby.

we are having a hard time communication with one and another. we weren't like how we used to be. happy . joyful. loving. caring. cute......

its all gone.
all we are just a couple that fight and fight.

and i know he is getting bored of me. cause he said once to someone else that my mouth really hurt his feelings.
but did he ever think about my feelings ? ... did you ever spare a thought for me? ....

i've been by your side through ups and downs, been through your empty promises. yet i still keep standing next to you even when u betray my trust .


so is it me that making my self crazy, trying to lie to myself that you love only me and u will never make the same mistake again? ...

or is it you that really truly think you can't affoard to lose me?

is there even love between us?..

why can't we be like before, soo crazy in love with each other? .. 24/7 you tried to be with me, and show me you tender loving care.





why not now?...





why must you change? why must i live knowing that my feelings are miserable. confused. hurt. mentally tortured? ....


i never left your side once. i supported what ever u are into. i always put you my first piority, ALWAYS...







now i live knowing that i will keep this feeling forever, its haunting me....

i'm hidding so many things,...

but i know this is what i want to do. even if i have to rip my heart out just to love and care for you, i will.

cause i know, till death to us apart, my heart belongs to you.




* simple and boring!

We promised to take our relationship slowly to the next level of life. S-L-O-W-L-Y.



that is the main target for me.



build trust , love with your whole heart. be true to each other.


I LOVE YOU JUSOF,you are my baby, my boyfriend, my lover, my bestfriend, my hubby ...

you're my everything!

Hey ho. Its been such a long time since i left my dusty blog .

There is so many things that i want to tell here.SO MANY WORDS TO TYPE.So many things to do. I wished i have my own space. My own place i call home. Just me and my hubby. I wished i was married, but after i found out the truth, YES TRUHT REALLY HURT. everything happens for a fucking reason. i don't really need to elaborate.

but i must say this, EVEN WHEN YOU'RE ALONE, INDEPENDENT, SAD.....your friends and family are there for you. I believe my friends... cause they kept me going. they kept me strong, they too are my pillar of strength. I use to think that friends are only there when your happy moments, but i trust them with my life. They are the ones who can see your true colours. they are the ones who make you laugh till you drop.... and they are the ones who make you smile with tears....

i thank you my dear friends, even with my tight schedule, you never let me down...